I think it is calling my name. I am not sure I can resist it much longer. It nags at me night and day! That piece of chocolate in the cupboard won't leave me alone. I dream about it and I think about it constantly. I want it even though I know it is not good for me. Sometimes it feels like I "need" it!
When I first came home from the hospital after surgery, I had to force myself to eat. All my temptations for chocolate disappeared. I was so happy because I thought I would not have to worry about sugar anymore. How dumb, huh? Now, I have trouble resisting the urges.
I thought that having a job would help because I would be busy and not have as much time to "graze". But I forgot about vending machines! I am sure the devil made those machines. Everything looks so delicious and so easily accessible. It is almost as if they are telling me, "you can eat this, it won't hurt you, just a little and you will be fine". Yeah right, lets be realistic!
So it is a daily struggle again. I guess it always will be. But now when I fall down, I pick myself up and try again. Lord you have worked a miracle in my life, but you did not say it would be easy. Please help me to resist temptation.
I would love to throw a pie in Satan's face!
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